Do you ever just feel blind?
Sometimes I feel really blind. And… I feel like I’m lost.
Or alone.
Or afraid, because I’m dancing really close to the edge of a cliff.
Or I’m fighting for my life, blindfolded, in a gladiatorial arena. (Um… never mind.)
Sometimes I feel like my life is a mystery. Like what, I’m going to have to figure out what to do? On my own? By myself? I’m going to have to guess how to live my life, and hopefully not mess up? That’s sure what it feels like sometimes.
I feel inadequate. Do you want to know why?
I feel inadequate because I am inadequate.
By myself, I am exactly how I feel. I am blind. Lost. Alone. Afraid (and rightly so). Fighting blindfolded.
I’m never gonna make it anywhere in this life if I try to do life by myself. See, we were made for more. God made us to love Him, glorify Him, and live for Him. In doing these things, we are satisfied in Him.
He has a plan for us all. No matter what we are going through, He is with us. By our side. Fighting for us. He is our Father.
We are blind, but He is leading us. And that’s really hard for me, because I’m a visual person. I want to see it to believe it. Don’t just tell me, show me! But God doesn’t always work like that.
There’s a few verses that have really encouraged me when I feel blind.
Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
Romans 8:28
“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”
Proverbs 3:5-6
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”
Joshua 1:9
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
Isaiah 42:16
“And I will lead the blind in a way that they do not know, in paths that they have not known I will guide them. I will turn the darkness before them into light, the rough places into level ground. These are the things I do, and I do not forsake them.”
I’m learning more and more to trust God with everything. He has a good plan for us. No matter how powerless and insecure we feel being blind, God really is leading us. He works out our lives for good, no matter how hard and horrible it may seem. Our understanding is flawed, but His is perfect. He straightens our paths. He guides us in paths we have not known. He does not ever forsake us. And He is always with us.
It’s so hard to wrap my mind around.
I mean, I’m not speaking from a bubble in happiness land. No, I’m right here, and life is hard.
It is extremely hard to trust God.
But once we give up trying to be the leaders and orchestrating our own lives, and give God the keys, it’s wonderful. Nothing we do can be done by ourselves alone.
It is God who empowers us to do the things He has planned for us, and not just what we can humanly do.
So maybe being blind is okay.
By letting God lead us, we will be so much better off.
He knows the plans He has for us. Plans for welfare and not for evil. Plans to give us a future, and a hope.
We can be strong and courageous because He is with us.
He will never leave; He is always going to be right here.
He guides us in paths we do not know.
We need Him more than ever, and He wants us to lean on Him.
God, please lead me when I’m blind.
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