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Why do I even do this?
Deeply breathing, I eke out the words, one by one. And slowly, slowly, my fingers begin to glide over the keys, and I let my thoughts run.
I don’t really know what I’m doing.
Oftentimes, the words come out more vulnerable than I’d like them to be.
What if I’m not living the life I’m supposed to be living?
Wordless.
Sometimes that’s what life makes us.
When we see the tragedies in the world, our own selves falling apart, the world splitting with injustice, and evil, and suffering – we don’t know what to say.
In our heads, we know that God is all good, all powerful, and full of compassion and love.
Yet when life makes us ache, brings us to our breaking point, and the world shouts, “How could you believe in a God that allows you to suffer?” we’re often silent.
Enough.
I have a love/hate relationship with that word; the whole concept of adequacy and fullness.
Because deep inside of me, there’s this longing to be truly enough…and an aching dread that I never will be.
I know that sounds extremely un-Christian and negative, so please do hear me out. This is something I think really needs to be addressed.
In a world that seems to require perfection, how can we, as imperfect humans, truly live freely?
Hey, friends. At the end of Tuesday’s post, I said something about taking a little hiatus from blogging so I can recharge and get back into school.
However, I’m back for a few minutes today, because I had a few things to say.
Continue reading “Realistically Living the Graceful Life (And So Much For That Hiatus)”
Welcome to week thirteen – the final week – of the Hebrews Bible Study on Scattered Journal Pages.
And wow, we’ve made it so far. I don’t have the time to bring up every lesson discussed in these thirteen weeks – so that’s what the previous post list is for, of course. This means now that if you want to access any study on any chapter in the entire Book of Hebrews, they’re all in the archives, open for the reading. I’m excited about that!
Continue reading “What The Christian Life is Really About (Hebrews Bible Study: Week 13)”
Sometimes, a day’s worth of writing is made up of a lot of staring at blank pages and waiting for the words to come.
And some days, it takes so much energy to do simple tasks, to check things off a to-do list, to convince ourselves to do things we know we need to do.
And on those days, the ones filled with procrastination and lack of motivation, we can often let ourselves be overcome with guilt.
Guilt. The opposite of freedom.
Continue reading “For When You Need Grace to Replace The Guilt”
Welcome to the second to last week of our weekly Hebrews Bible Study, right here on Scattered Journal Pages. It’s almost over, and I can’t believe it.
These Tuesdays with all of you, spent digging into the Word of God have meant so much to me, as has your support. I adore the book of Hebrews, and the soul-level truths discussed in it. While I could never do the book proper justice, I have been loving taking the extra time to really study Hebrews and see points I would’ve missed if I hadn’t taken the time to slow down and really read.
Continue reading “The Key To The Christian Life (Hebrews Bible Study: Week 12)”
I can’t believe we’ve made it this far, everyone. Welcome to week eleven of our Hebrews Bible Study. Only two weeks left, and I can’t wrap my head around how fast the time’s gone by.
So before we hop into this week’s study, let’s review what we covered in week ten.
Continue reading “What Will You Do With Jesus? (Hebrews Bible Study: Week 11)”
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