To be completely honest, I have no idea where I’ll be a few years from now.
I have no idea what I’ll be doing, who I’ll be friends with, where exactly I’ll be at in school, where I’ll be living, nothing. I really don’t know.
To some people, this might seem like a horrible thing. NO CONTROL? WHAT ARE YOU, CRAZY?
(Yeah, I am. But it’s a good kind of crazy. You’ll see why.)
I can be a bit of a control freak at times. Really. I worry way too much about things sometimes. I wouldn’t encourage it, because it focuses on I and me too much. What I want. What’ll help me. (More like what I think that I want and will help me, but really won’t.)
I might make a million plans right now. Now this is hypothetical, and I haven’t thought through the answers to all of this, but I’ll do an example.
I’m going to go to ____ College.
I’m going to major in _______.
I’m going to have a career in _________.
I’m going to date ________ person, we’re going to get engaged and be engaged for ___ months, and our wedding theme and colors will be __________.
I’m going to have _________ many kids.
I’m going to buy a house by the ___________.
And so on and so forth. Maybe we don’t have it all figured out, but we dream (and plan out our ideas in our heads), and hold onto *that thing* as our security.
But *that thing* cannot be guaranteed. Why? Because we are not in control.
Proverbs 16:9 says, “The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.”
I’m not saying I haven’t made plans. I sure have. I mean, it’s very smart to plan ahead, but we cannot be so stuck on it that we don’t let God lead us.
James 4:13-15 sums this up pretty much the same way that I’m trying to explain.
“Come now, you who say, ‘Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit’— yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, ‘If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.’”
We should live with “loosened feet”. Feet that are free to move where God calls us. We can plan, but we must let God direct us. We are not in control; He is. We should live to do what God wills for us. By getting to know Him, He will show us. He will open and close doors for us, and He will guide us.
(Isaiah 30:21, “And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left.”)
Like I said, I have absolutely no idea where I’ll be at in a few years, both physically and spiritually.
But that’s okay with me.
I’m not in control, but I know the One who is. And I trust that He knows what’s best for me.
As a matter of fact, I know that He knows what’s best for me. He knows what’ll bring me closer to Him. He has a purpose in everything, even if I can’t see it.
So I’ve let go.
It’s okay that I’m not in control. Because He is, and that’s all I need to know.