If you couldn’t tell from any of my previous posts, I’m one of those classic Type-A, list-writing, goal-driven, oftentimes perfectionistic girls.
But this year, this 2017, I’ve implemented some things into my life that have helped me make grace tangible, my faith just as a part of my life as every other thing on my lists.
And the first thing is my Done List.
Many people in the world have to-do lists; whether chicken-scratched on a loose scrap of paper, dictated into Evernote, or perfectly printed in a notebook, we’re all familiar with the concept. It’s our own human way of organizing our lives, of creating little goals with checkboxes and a dose of self-motivation thrown in.
But I don’t use to-do lists. I use something called a Done List.
I’m not sure who came up with the name, whether it was me or someone else on the internet.
Here’s how it works: At the beginning of the day, I tell myself what I need to do. Accomplish some coursework, help my family, keep up with friends, cook something to eat, evening devotions, something along those lines.
And I do my best to do those things, rolling with whatever life brings me, living to meet the needs of those around me and practice spontaneity.
And when I crawl into bed at night, typically exhausted, I pull out my journal and list the things I accomplished.
I started a new module in my latest course.
I cooked dinner.
I spent time with my mom.
I called a friend.
I began to write.
I went for a walk.
I spent time with God.
And to any random person on the street, that probably doesn’t seem like much. I didn’t take any tests, respond to my emails, exercise for an hour, write an essay, or host a party.
But instead of beating myself over what’s still to do, I can celebrate that my value isn’t found in any of those things – it’s found in what Christ has done for me.
And so these are my days, filled with an array of different things, varying from day to day, and here I learn to be okay with what’s done.
This past year was filled with a lot of this learning for me – learning to rest in the finished work of Christ. And this year, I’m learning too, to rest in Him so I can then rest in what I’ve done. No regretting what I did or didn’t do.
This Done List is my own way of making that rest tangible – that spiritual rest, and then the physical rest, too.
At the end of the day, when I’m lettering my accomplishments into my journal, I rest.
I can rest in the fact that what’s done is done.
I can rest in the fact that tomorrow’s a new day, a new one to live fully in.
And I can rest in the fact that my intrinsic value goes so much deeper than what I have or have not done.
And the Done List helps keep me aware of that, day after day, night after night. I’m learning to rest in the perfection of Christ, not in the perfection of Amanda. I’m learning to balance what I think I should be doing with the things that actually come up.
I’m learning to look to the days ahead, with goals and dreams in mind, but holding them loosely – letting God take them and shape them for the better.
That’s the Done List. Letting God take my days and mold them to what He has for them to be – and embracing the beauty of life when God changes our plans and makes them even better.
It’s about resting in Him.
And that’s exactly how I want to live.