More Of My Book: Mending (+ free wallpaper!)

More of My Book_ Mending

Happy Tuesday, lovely readers. I hope you’ve had a wonderful week.

Tuesday always creeps up on me and I almost forgot to post. But I suppose I didn’t, since I’m here now.


I was inspired this week by one of Ann Voskamp’s blog posts. It made me cry (in a good way), and I highly recommend reading it. Her writing is exquisite.


Anyway, I wanted to share the final segment of chapter one of my book. I’m at 13k right now, and because April so far has just been chaotic and impossible, I’ve brought my goal down to 20k. That doesn’t mean anything significant – it just means I’ll be writing at a more manageable pace.


My book is turning out to be different than I imagined, but I’m really happy with it. And my cabin mates – Hannah, Jonathan, Hann, Jessi, Anna, Rachel, another Anna, and a few others still – are some of the most encouraging people I’ve met. I’ve accomplished more than I ever would’ve without the encouragement.


Today’s segment is on depression. Sound depressing? Maybe. It’s a tough topic. But instead of giving us the excuse to wade neck-high in self pity over our feelings, I want us to find hope in the truth that we have to hold onto.




The word depression used to frighten me. I thought of teenagers sitting alone in their rooms, wearing all black, blasting rock music, and choosing not to be happy. It was always a touchy subject in my mind, and a bit intimidating.

But then I experienced depression of my own and my entire perspective changed.

Contrary to popular belief, depression is not a bad word, nor is it entirely a bad thing. We shouldn’t act as though topics such as depression should be avoided; rather, we should confront the problems we have without shame.

The problems arise when we allow our depression to control us. Bad things happen when we let our minds wander much too far, when we allow ourselves to think such negative, distorted thoughts, and when we trade God’s truths for our feelings.

And as much as depression has become such a cultural norm, and it should not be brushed under the rug as “a ploy for attention,” we need to face it and learn how not to be consumed by it.


What is Depression? Can Christians Be Depressed?


As I’ve said before, I have nowhere near all the answers. I’m not a professional. I’m just a girl wanting to share what I’ve experienced and what I’m learning in my crazy life, and the things that have immensely helped me.

I know that depression can have multiple forms, none of which should be taken lightly.

Whether your depression is medical, clinical, or emotional, it hurts. I know it does. It hurts to feel empty. It hurts to feel like nothing matters. It hurts to feel constantly weighted by a seemingly unshakable dark cloud. It hurts, because depression is a fog, and you can’t see anything in front of you except the inky blackness. All that’s visible is the here and now, which can seem to be so overwhelming when everything feels utterly hopeless.

People often attempt to say that Christians can’t suffer from depression for the simple reason that our lives should be in total order once we’re saved. Or, that being depressed is a sin or a petty feeling and we should just get over it.

I highly disagree.

Instead, I’d say this. Christians often suffer from depression, and torture themselves over it because they believe they shouldn’t feel the pain or numbness. This only leads to feeling worse, because you can’t just whip yourself out of a mindset or condition – especially one that’s not even a spiritual problem in the first place. Healing is a process. If it’s medical or clinical depression, a person will need medical attention, and not just lectures from someone ordering them to “snap out of it.” Similarly, those with emotional depression will need time to heal. Time to rebuild the joy in their hearts. No amount of sermons, books, blog posts, lectures, or conversations can heal a tormented soul – only God can.


Is There Anything I Can Do About My Depression?


What sets us apart from the rest of the world is the fact that we have a hope to hold onto. We know that God will hold us up when our weakness is the greatest. We know that God cares for us and loves us unconditionally. We know that in our Lord, we can find true rest. We know that God’s presence is with us always. We know that in our lowest times, God still reaches us. We know that even when life is full of torment, God loves us and wants us to rely on Him for strength.

Hearing those things doesn’t make everything instantly feel better; of course it doesn’t. It may take years to grasp those concepts, even the ones found in the verses we memorized as kids. In the middle of our depression, those truths, while comforting, may seem distant or not applicable to us. This is normal. We’ve trained our minds to think things contrary to truth, and it’s only natural for it to take time for us to come back to what’s right and good.

Nevertheless, we must keep feeding our minds with what the Bible says. Thinking the thoughts that God says about us. Reading the Scriptures over and over. Praying for God to bring us through. Meditating on verses that remind us that God has a plan through it all. Believing God for the strength and peace He promises.

And while none of these things are magic, they help. And slowly, with the proper approach and by filling our minds with truth, we can begin to mend.




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16 Replies to “More Of My Book: Mending (+ free wallpaper!)”

    This(your writing/book) is amazing! And all so true!
    So I’ve actually struggled with minor depression a few times, and like you said, it takes a special kind of healing to get better. God really helped me through my depression, and I am so happy to have a loving God to lean on.
    Once again I say: you’ve got a God-given talent. I’m so glad you use your writing skills for sharing God’s love with others 🙂 It’s inspirational.
    SIDE NOTE #2: I used to think people with depression were emo. i thought It was something your were born with. Of course, I see how wrong I was now.
    Side note #3: That blog post by Ann Voskamp is so sad and sweet. I nearly–but did not–cried.

    I… uh, sorry this comment was so long… ://

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    1. YOU are amazing, Hann. :’)
      That’s awesome. Not the fact that you struggled with it, but that God brought you through it. It’s wonderful to look back from the other side.
      That…means more than you know. I really find passion in spreading my faith in the hope that I have, and I’m glad that I can be used by God in that way – I”m still amazed that people can actually like what I write! Haha! Keeps me humble.
      Emo. Yes, that’s the right word. Same.
      Aww, glad you liked it. I’m just in awe of her gorgeous writing – and her story with her son. It really touched me. :’)

      No, it’s good! Long comments are the best.😀


      1. Thanks…. 😀 ❤
        Don't stay amazed too long, because people are just going to keep sayin' they love your writing, girl ;P
        Yes, her writing is so good!


  2. WOW Amanda this was such a good segment for an issue many people take a skim-over approach to. But I agree with everything you said, whole-heartedly. Depression is real, but God can bring us out of it.
    Thanks for sharing! 😀


  3. Thank you so much, Amanda. A very dear friend is visiting at the moment, and she has had/been having pretty severe depression. I showed her this post, and it greatly encouraged her.

    Your words are so insightful, and I’m sure they have touched many lives, including my friend’s. Thank you so much for sharing these wonderful posts; they have encouraged me and inspired me so much. ❤


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